It has taken some time to get to this point but the reality is that I have an enormous gap in my life where I had envisaged a child or children would be. So what else is out there for me that could bring me enjoyment and challenges – another dream to start chasing?
I have spent a lot of time in recent years helping others to achieve their goals. I am a person who likes to see projects through to completion so have made a good ‘right hand man’ for a number of people. But now is the time to find something for myself that will fulfil me and that I can channel all the energy I would have been using if I had been raising a child.
So along came some more difficult questions of me to think about and answer:
What are my interests?
What do I enjoy doing?
What do I have enthusiasm for?
What can I do that is something purely for myself?
I had previously come up with a few ideas but had never acted on them. Perhaps they were not inspiring enough for me to try them? Perhaps it was a combination of work and other pressures that had prevented me from thinking about them? But now I feel it is time to focus on this and prioritise it over other things in my life. It might take some time to come across whatever will help me to fill this gap but at least if I am doing something it prevents that feeling of being at a standstill.